Saturday, May 10, 2008


I'm sorry for the quiet.
To those who have written to check in- thank you. It's nice to be missed.

Honestly, no news is good news. Or at least, not bad news. I'm at 23w2d. I'm sort of holding my breath for 24w at this point.
I had a regular OB check last Monday and she gave me the rundown of milestones.

24w is possible viability
28w is even better
32w is pretty darned good
34w the baby would need a little time in the NICU, but not a lot.
Then 37w is full term.

I'm so focused on that 24w mark that last night I dreamt I was 24w and said "okay, the baby can come now." then realized what I was saying and said "NO NO NO! I don't mean that! A few more weeks! A few more weeks!"

I'm feeling mostly okay. I've been having a lot of trouble with insomnia for the last week. So much so that I took several vacation days just to sleep. It's been 2 weeks since spotting (so you know, I'm due any time now. *sigh*) I've had some crampy days but that's probably to be expected. I'm now officially up 1 pound since pre-pregnancy. My back still gives me fits and my pubic bone feels essentially like I'm splitting in half a good deal of the time, but I'm managing. I just waddle a little. It's a small price to pay.

The baby is moving more and more, though sometimes still has long stretches of quiet which freaks me out occasionally. I sort of wonder how I'm going to feel after the baby comes. Will I miss the feeling? I've had several days where the baby was busy all day long and when s/he sleeps, I suddenly feel like something is missing. Feeling the baby move is definitely the best part of pregnancy. Even when little feetsies are smashing into my bladder. Love every minute of it. Of course, I haven't peed myself in a gush yet, so we'll see if that changes if that happens.

Anyway, I'm still scared. Believe me. Still scared. Always scared. But being close to what feels like a real possibility of a baby is nice. Of course, as I said, I feel like I'm holding my breath for 24w. Five more days. Five more days.

I'm telling myself that at 24w I have to start researching baby items. Maybe buy some maternity clothes. Start a registry. We'll see if I find a reason to put it off again then, but right now, that's what I'm telling myself.

Thanks for the continued well wishes. We can always use them.



Ariella said...

I am glad you are doing well. I can't belive you are almost to 24 weeks that is amazing. And to not need maternity clothing yet, boy am I jealous! I need the bella band at 6 weeks!

Diana said...

Thanks for checking in! So glad to hear you and baby are doing well!!!

Fertilized said...

your timeline is my mantra! the 24, 32, 34, 37... I hear ya. I keep repeating that over and over.

Jenn said...

So glad to hear from you again! I've been thinking about you and praying for you. Only 1 pound--lucky! Baby-step your way through the weeks. That's what I'm doing. Let me know if you need anything.

Nicky said...

Same weekly countdown I'm doing (just to get to 24, then think about 28, then ...), since I'm also right at the "cusp" at 22w5d. Focusing on the "little" milestones helps me not to stress as much. If I were focused only on 37 weeks, I'd be a constant nervous wreck.

Malloryn said...

It's great to here from you, Trish! It will be good to have that 24W milestone behind you.

Kristen said...

I'm glad everything is ok. 24w is just around the corner. I know you can make it - and even further. I am nearly 28w and I still depend on my doppler sometimes. Just take it day by day. Eventually, you will feel comfortable enough to take baby steps like the registry and maternity clothes. It is hard but you will get there. XOXO

Anonymous said...

Hey, Ginger here. Thanks for the update. I'm so pleased to hear you're thinking about maternity clothes and a registry!!!

tryingin2007 said...

maternity clothes AND a registry! I'm so proud of you! :)

Amy said...

Praying 24 weeks will be here before you know it!