Saturday, April 26, 2008

More spotting

Yesterday was one of those days where I was miserable. My back was so sore I can't even explain it. I worked all day, and was never so glad to get home in my life. I managed to get comfortable at home and relax. By the time I went to bed I felt pretty okay.
I actually slept fairly well. I woke up a few times but only got up once to pee. I slept about 8 hours. It was the best night's sleep I've had in ages.

I woke up feeling good. I decided to take advantage of feeling decent and get some housework done. Nothing major- just a little dusting, bathrooms and laundry. Bending to scrub the tub was a little uncomfortable, but nothing major. At one point a shirt got caught on the agitator in the washing machine and I had to reach to unhook it. It hurt a little. Then there was a sock I had to reach for. My belly pulled a little. But overall, I felt okay.

Some family is in town for the weekend, we had reservations at a local Brazilian Steakhouse. On the away there (way across the city) my belly hurt a little. When I got to the restaurant, I went to go pee. Glanced down. Hmm, that almost looks pink. I tried to convinced myself it was the cheap toilet paper. But it looked like a real spot of red. So I double checked. Lots of pink. SHIT.

Of course, my heart stopped. I went back out and pulled my husband aside and told him we had to go home right after dinner because I was spotting again. Then I tried to act normal. The family wanted me to come to my dad's house after dinner. I begged off saying I didn't feel well. (True enough.) After dinner, my grandma gave me some baby blankets and a stuffed bear for the baby. Wow. Here I am praying the baby is okay and holding gifts in my hands. That was an interesting mix of emotions.

Anyway, I got home. The baby kicked a little, I listened with the Doppler. Everything seems fine. The bleeding stopped. I can only speculate that the reaching & stretching pulled something. And it's healing, I hope.

But suffice it to say that my stress level is sky high again. Against my own good sense, I googled "premature births" trying to decide when the baby can be born and be okay. Clearly not now (21w2d) but how long do we have to hold on. I just have this horrible vision of a placental abruption at some point. We just need to get to viability. Seems like the minimum for viability and a good chance at a meaningful life is right around 28 weeks. Of course I hope for another 16 (full term =37w) but maybe 7 weeks is more reasonable a short term goal.

I could use more prayers if you got 'em. I'm having a really hard time believing this is going to end with a healthy baby in my arms.



Adriane said...

I found your blog through another I frequent. I've been reading for about 1 week and saw this post this morning. I truly hope there is no more spotting today. I would have been freaked out at the restaurant - kudos to you for acting normal! My assvice is to call the Dr to be on the safe side.

I live in the STL metro area, too. I think our due dates are 2 days apart, per our counters. Anyway, just wanted to stop and say hi!

I've also heard that viability is more at the 24 week stage. (Just what I've read.) Granted, there are lots of hurdles and issues/complications that can arise at this point.

Anyway, hope you are feeling better today.

Fertilized said...

saying a prayer for you trish

silvashan said...

another prayer coming your way trish.

tryingin2007 said...

oh trish! this really has been a rough road for you. I sincerely feel your pain. I had terrible low vaginal cramping on friday night (after numerous coughing fits) and I freaked! I am (we are) forever worried!!!!!

I'm sending many positive thoughts your way.

Barb B said...

Prayers have never ceased going your way, but I will add a few more for good measure.

Jenn said...

Prayers and good thoughts for you & baby!