After having felt like shit all day yesterday, today was the complete opposite.
I woke up and thought "Hmm, my bladder doesn't hurt." Then I just knew that when I stood up, it'd get me. I had to go, yes, but nothing serious. Odd.
My pelvis didn't hurt. My hip didn't pop. My boobs haven't hurt in 3 days. How odd.
I was feeling pretty good. I told myself "won't need the Doppler today!"
HA. AS IF.
As the day wore on and I just really felt normal, I freaked out. Normal? Normal!? I'm 4 months pregnant, I shouldn't feel normal! Then I gave myself the whole lecture about people feeling good in the 2nd trimester. Just because I hadn't yet experienced that doesn't mean I shouldn't be now. But yeah, I find it it's a lot easier to believe the bad stuff.
Of course, I then developed a full on migraine at work and spent my time trying to decide if I was in more head pain or more worried. (I decided it was more head pain. It REALLY hurt.) I even took some Tylenol. (Yes, I know it's allowed, but I really try not to take ANYthing.) I took an early lunch and laid down. I considered going home sick, but we don't have real sick days at my job. If I left, I'd have to apply for FMLA and I can just see my OB laughing at me when I say I need FMLA for a flippin' headache.
Anyway, after the day FINALLY ended, I came home and went directly to lay down grabbing my Doppler on the way.
Now, I should add that I have been sort of, maybe (I think possibly) feeling the baby for the last couple of days. A couple of times today I felt a small tap low and to the left.
I laid down and readied the Doppler and then said out loud "Now listen, just let me have a quick listen. Don't hide, and it'll be over quick." I put the microphone on the spot where I felt what I think are taps and turned the machine on. WOOSH-WOOSH-WOOSH-WOOSH. 158 bpm. I smiled. Thanks kiddo. I then heard a good kick to the microphone and the baby was gone. I really don't understand how they can hide so well. It's not like there are caves in there. Where do they go? I searched again for a couple of minutes to no avail and then decided that I promised it would be quick so I should stop. I was reassured.
Then I slept for a while hoping to cure my headache. No luck. Tonight I got up, took 2 more Tylenol and drank half a glass of coke. That's the first caffeine I've had in many months. (Well, I accidentally drank a caffeinated Root Beer about a month ago, but other than that.) I took a long steamy shower and I finally seem to have made a dent in the head pain. I feel kind of guilty about the Coke but I really couldn't function. I figure I got a max of about 30mg of caffeine, though. I'm being ridiculous, I know. But surely by now you all have figured out how paranoid I am.
My boobs are a *little* tender tonight so at least that's something on the pregnancy front. It's funny how reassuring that is to me. Again- yes. I'm insane. I know.
Anyway, I guess on the good front- baby is fine. On the exciting front- I'm almost sure now that I'm feeling the baby move. I mean, I thought I was feeling something and that "something" had a heartbeat. That must mean something. (How many times can I say "something"??)
Now that the feeling that my brains might rupture out of my left temple has ended, I'm calling this another successful day. As is any day that ends with a heart beat and no padded room.