Monday, August 13, 2007

D&C scheduled

Too tired for much of a post tonight, but wanted to let everyone know.

I called the office when they opening this morning (one of the benefits of not sleeping is being available at any hour) and left a message that nothing had happened.

I think the receptionist just told Good Nurse Crystal to call me and not what I had said because when Crystal called she sounded very hopeful when she asked "So, did it work?!"
And really disappointed when I said "not even a little."

She was pretty frustrated. She apologized a hundred times even though I told her it was MY body that was not cooperating, not anything she'd done.

She said she'd call the doc at home and call me back. An hour later, she called and asked me to come in for another beta. I really don't know what the point of that was when we had an u/s on Thursday that showed a sac not budging, but hey, whatever floats their boat. She wanted me to come in to the office rather than going to the lab so she could make sure she got the results back today.

She called about 3 this afternoon and my # was still in the 600's (I was FINALLY sleeping after being up for 2 days and was too groggy to remember the exact #) and wanted to schedule a D&C right away.

So Wednesday morning at 8:30, I get the pray-n-scrape. Of course, all this talk about uterine scarring has scared the shit out of me, so I'm a little nervous. Not about the procedure. I've done that before. No biggie. But the consequences. But what choice do I have?

I'm just glad to have an end in mind. Honestly when I left the office from the blood-draw I almost broke down in the car because I thought they were going to put me off again and I'm just not sure how much more of this I can take.

I felt better after a 4 hour "nap" and a resolution.

I'm actually quite tired tonight and about to go to bed. There's a good chance I'll be up in 3 hours, but I have to at least try.

I'll write more tomorrow. Lots of stuff swirling in my mind this week, just too tired to put it all together.



Fertilize Me said...

yuck, ugh, sigh! But glad you are starting to get sleepy. Sending thoughts your way ;)

T-girl said...

Just a big hug to let you know that we are here!

Kristen said...

I just wanted to send you lots of X's and O's. My thoughts are constantly with you.

Sunny said...

I am glad you have an end in sight. It hurts but it also helps. Today a year ago I had my d&c. I didn't want to leave the hospital. It was such a safe place.


Alyse said...

Duh, why did I not know about your blog? It is really good, despite the sad content.

::::hugs:::: I am here if you want to talk or just want to get your mind off things.

Changing Expectations said...

I am so sorry that you are going through this.

I am thinking about you. Big hugs are coming your way

ultimatejourney said...

I'll be thinking about you tomorrow. I'm so sorry you have to go through this procedure, on top of dealing with the loss.

Marz said...

I'm so sorry.
Sending you a big hug & I will be thinking of you in the morning.

Sheridan said...

Hope that empathy from a complete stranger helps a little - I know this is a lousy time, but it will be good to know it's over.

T-girl said...

Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you and hoping that today goes by fast and easy.