Saturday, January 5, 2008

Spot

I had some blood on the TP this morning.

Not a lot. More like a small clot in some cervical mucous, but most definitely blood.

I didn't freak out at first. I went to the couch and laid. My husband wasn't up yet, so I just waited for him to wake up. When he woke up, I went to lay with him in bed. He asked how I was feeling and I told him there was some spotting this morning.

He said "That's not good, right?"

I explained that some people do have some spotting and it's okay, but that no, it's not generally a good sign.

That's when I lost it. I sobbed & sobbed and asked why this keeps happening to us. We're good people. We'd be great parents. We deserve to be parents. All he could do was agree with me, and hold me.

I have spent the rest of the day in bed just trying to stay off my feet. So far, no more blood. I am (and have been) fairly crampy, though. It's not the crampy of miscarriage, so I hadn't been too concerned, but now I have to wonder if the things are related. Cramping is okay. Spotting is okayish. The two combined aren't great. So, here we are.


Again.


--Trish

17 comments:

Colleen said...

hugs

Meghan said...

What a scary day. I'll be thinking of you and sending lots of hugs your way

Milo said...

That is scary.

(((hugs))

I had both spotting and cramping at the same time with my pregnancy, so the two together don't always mean miscariage. I hope this isn't another miscariage for you, Trish.

I'll be praying for you.

Amy said...

(((((((((Trish))))))))))
Yeah, that definitely would be scary. I'm starting to cry ... and begging God, "PLEASE, God, NO!! Let this one stick!!!"

The Bugala's said...

This can't be happening to you again. Sending lots of hugs and chocolate your way...as well as some Clare smiles.

Ariella said...

I hope this one sticks Trish. Your in my thoughts and prayers.

Sunny said...

PRAYING!!!!

ultimatejourney said...

Thinking of you and hoping for a happy outcome.

Kierstin said...

Oh Trish! How scary! I am so sorry that this is happening, I am keeping up the prayers and hoping for the best!

Anonymous said...

i love you trish. and i'm praying hard for you!

adub

Sonadora said...

::hugs::

wanttobeamom said...

Uugh. I'm so sorry. That is scary. I've been there too and it sucks. You can add my prayers to the list. Take it easy and take care of yourself.

[hug]

Sheridan said...

hang in there, it's so likely to be nothing...I'll be sending good wishes your way, please let us know how you are doing.

Malloryn said...

I'll be thinking about you a lot and sending good thoughts your way. This must be so scary for you.

T-girl said...

The day I got back the results of my first beta I had some spotting and everything is fine.

Sending good vibes and thoughts your way! ;)

Jenn said...

I'm praying for you and hoping everything is OK.

Susan NiƱo said...

Hi--I went to high school with Colleen and will keep you and your baby in my prayers and will add you to my church prayer chain! I hope you will have peace in your heart and your pregnancy will move forward!