Sunday, August 31, 2008

And the survey says......

I still have the text message on my phone from a friend from the day I was inseminated with a paltry 4.5 million sperm. A friend wrote back "I'm sorry. I was praying for millions and millions."

Twelve days later- Christmas day- there were 2 lines on a stick. I wasn't quite sure what to make of it. I looked at David with a curious look on my face and when he said "What?" I said "I think I'm pregnant again." We both stared at each other for a long moment and started to smile, then quickly caught ourselves. "Let's see what the doctor says."

We'd seen 2 lines before. Twice. And no babies to show for it. We'd wait and see.

Of course, the doctor confirmed. I was due Thursday, September 4. Four days from now.

That is the day they tell me I'll be bringing my son home. He won't be a red faced newborn, maybe 8 pounds or so. Instead he'll be a tiny 3 month old hooked to a heart monitor. But he's ours. And he'll be home.

Dr. C came to talk to me today. Mostly to tell me goodbye. I cried, of course. We both told each other how much we'd enjoyed knowing each other. I promised to visit. He promised to call me about a doctor's appointment I've been nagging him to make.

A nurse or two has come by to congratulate us on going home soon. "He looks SO. GOOD." they tell me.

It's bittersweet.

I won't miss having to drive across town to see my son. I won't miss feeling like a spectator in his life. I won't miss having to wake up and wonder who is taking care of him today.

But I'll miss a lot of the people. Gavin's parents, Elizabeth's parents, Lexi's, Keith, Luca, Jacob, Cecelia...

And there are the nurses. There are the few that I won't miss at all. But by and large, I'll miss a lot of them. When they come to tell me how cute he is, to see what he's wearing today. To congratulate us on no vent, a crib, no oxygen.. going home.. They are part of the family.

They are all part of the team that saved my son's life. Even that God forsaken vent- much as I hate it- saved my son's life.

I'm forever grateful.


Now let the celebration begin.


--Trish


It wouldn't be a weekend without PICTURES!!






13weeks old! (and ANGRY!)


That's my mommy up there!


Look at my fancy hospital crib:

36 comments:

Mommy2K said...

Hey Trish, Long time no talk. I'm glad all is looking up for you and you will FINALLY have your little man home soon! :) Congrats!! He's a cutie

Kristin (kekis) said...

I'm a bit emotional just reading this, and Robbie's not mine! (Although if you ever make it to Dallas we'd babysit!)

Surprisingly, he has a stuffed moose. I figured that we'd sacrificed ANY & ALL moose around!

Milo said...

OMG, I'm just so super happy for you guys!!!!

Now you get to cuddle him in your own home! :-)

Mrs. Spit said...

Amen.

Jody said...

How amazing that he'll be home on his due date!!

Anonymous said...

I've been following your story and it's so great to see Robbie is going home and on his due date!!! He is so cute and it's been wonderful to see him get so big :) Where did you get that adorable dragon sleeper I saw in one of your many pictures a while ago?

Pamela said...

Oh Trish! Congratulations! I am crying happy tears for you!

MissWeeza said...

YESSSSSSSSSSSS!
I am so very excited for you!

Grumps said...

Yay Trishy!!!!!! I'm so pleased for you and David!!!!!!

Elizabeth said...

Life is good...

I know the phrase is all trademarked now or whatever, but it's the thought in my head reading your post.

In a world with so much that I'll never understand, there are moments and miracles like Robbie and thus...

Life is good, Life is so very good.

Kierstin said...

YEAH!!! I am so happy for all 3 of you! What a moment! I am in tears reading this.
I still remember the phone call saying he was coming in an hour. How I prayed!! The prayers will continue but they have changed, instead of praying that he would be okay, I am now praying for a happy and healthy life!
I expect lots of pictures and feel free to call ANYTIME if you need ANYTHING.

p.s. Take one of his blankets home and lay it on the floor so that the cats and Kenzie can get use to his smell.

GOD is good!! I am just so excited!

Two Hands said...

Man, I'm sitting here crying. Geez.
That's the best news I have heard in forever. I am soooo happy for you and your family.
Thanks for making my year.

Stephanie said...

Oh Trish, you look so calm and serene holding Robbie in that pic. You look like even though everything in your world is going crazy, when you have Robbie in your arms, everything makes sense and you are at peace. I love that, and I am SO GLAD he gets to go home soon!!

Mrs. Shoes said...

He look sso big now. And absolutely beautiful. I am so excited you are taking your little miracle home soon. I am just welling up with tears thinking about it.

Amy said...

Aww, I LOVE this entry! Love the perspective, the beginning of the journey, your Christmas present. :)I adore the pics, too.

Spork Fashion said...

:::::happy dance happy dance:::::

S said...

I am thrilled! Way to go Robbie!! Keep growing big and strong!

T-Mommy said...

I am SO VERY happy for you Trish!!!... Robbie graduation will be awesome, I am sure!!!

...Don't forget to bring lots of kleenex, you won't be able to see from all the tears that will be flowing.

It is going to be an UNFORGETABLE day!

Michelle said...

You have me in tears... again! Congratulations!! I can't wait to see pics from HOME!
Get lots of sleep now in the days leading up to his homecoming and know that there are lots of mommies out here rooting for you!

Angela said...

I had been down from my computer for a week and missed reading your blog everyday. I just got back on and read tonight the good news. I am so happy and almost cried when I read it! I had twins in the NICU so I know what an exciting time this is. I am so glad you will all be together now. You, your husband and robbie are strong!!

Sheridan said...

Woohoo! Happy homecoming, Robbie! It will be so good to have your family home together.

Jen said...

Yay!!! I am so glad the day has finally come for the 3 of you to be snug in your own home together! Get some sleep, I am sure you will be sitting over him all night in his crib that first night! :-) The prayers will continue because obviously they are working! Congrats Trish!

JenRooks

Anonymous said...

So excited for you, David and especially Robbie. I am sooooo thrilled for you guys! Keep up the good work little man!

Darby

Lisa said...

Well maybe now you will quit making me cry while I'm at work :) I am beyond happy for you guys. As Kierstin said, God is good!

Lisa

Heather said...

Congratulations!!!! Can't wait to hear about Robbie's homecoming!

Dawn said...

Yay!!! Thats awsome that you get to bring him home in only a few short day!!!!

Beth said...

This is such amazing news!! I can't wait to see and hear all the news of him being home.

Anonymous said...

Hi Trish,
You don't know me, but I'm a nestie who happened across your blog a few months ago. This is my first time leaving a message. I just wanted to tell you how incredibly happy I am for you, David and Robbie that you will all be home to start your "normal" life soon. Your strength over the last few months is nothing short of amazing. This internet stranger wishes you and your family all the best.

Maria (MKC101103) said...

I'm getting goosebumps all over thinking about Robbie going home with you!!!!!!!

BarnStar said...

I'm hoping no posts in two days means you are getting the nursery set up for Robbie's big arrival! So excited that you can be a family at home finally!

Milenka said...

Getting so excited for you guys over here! :-)

tubelessstl said...

a wonderful post of good news knowing he is near coming home. YEAH

Anonymous said...

Yaaaay! I'm so very happy for you all. I can't wait to see pics of Robbie at HOME!!

Jadie

battynurse said...

Congrats on going home soon!!

Kristen said...

I have been following your blog for months now, but often don't comment...until today. I am so happy for you. I hope your homecoming with Robbie is as wonderful as you've dreamed it to be!!!

Me said...

CONGRATS!!! Can't wait to see the first pics of him at home!