Today was a really good day. Really good. There were maybe 20 total minutes where I felt a little out of sorts, but otherwise, I felt like me all day. The best part is how great my kids are. It feels so good to FEEL that. I also didn't shake today. At all, I think.
Saturday was sort of so-so. Sunday was pretty decent. Today was really great. I did take my pill earlier today than usual, so maybe that was part of it. I took it at lunch instead of late afternoon. Since the worst time of the day is usually right around dusk, I thought I should get it in and at full strength a few hours before that. I had been taking it just before dusk thinking it would be strongest right away, but I think maybe it takes a little longer than that to kick in.
The only bad thing I can say about today is that I think I'm getting thrush. Holy crap does my left nipple hurt. My right one has been a little sore, but NOTHING like leftie. It takes my breath away when she starts nursing and hurts the whole time. I've tried relatching her a dozen times, nursing in a different position and what not and nothing seems to matter. I'll call the doctor tomorrow.
Apparently I have a few risk factors including having been on antibiotics during and after delivery and a recent regular yeast infection. So.. you know.. lucky me. That was actually one of the causes of my few minutes of anxiety today. I had a brief flash of worrying it was mastitis (no basis for that. That was just Crazy Thought Anxiety at play) and freaked out a little, but I talked myself down. But I really do think that at worst it's thrush (which sucks, but is just annoying, not a huge deal) and at best it's a blister or something. (Though I can't see a blister or anything.)
Anyway, today is my 2 weeks Lexapro anniversary, so this is the point where people said they started feeling better, both emotionally and from the side effects, and I'm here to say that I must be experiencing the same thing. I hope it continues and I think it will. I know there will be drops again and I just dread it. I hate the down part of ups and downs, but right now it feels so good to actually have ups again that I'm just trying to take it one day at a time. Today was a good one.