34w

Well, he gained 5 grams last night. Not exactly the 30 they want but at this point, upward is good.

He's still having loose stools since we switched from the NJ to the NG but they're a little better than they were, so who knows.

They added a wedged under his isolette (which was already head elevated, of course) hoping that would help with his spitting up and so far, it seems to have. Keep your fingers crossed.

His breathing is still pretty good.

He's 34 weeks gestation today. This was the point they'd have taken him if my body could have held out. What a difference 7 1/2 weeks could have made.

But we play the hand we were dealt.

We kangarooed last night facing a different direction. Instead of facing away from everyone, we were facing towards them. Several nurses came by to coo over him and everyone kept saying "He looks so good!"

He really does look pink and healthy and adorable. If he could just GROW.

In any case, I'm feeling a bit better. I pretty much didn't eat yesterday. I had an activia yogurt in the afternoon. We'll try a little bit more food today and see how it goes.

I appreciate everyone's insights into my side/back/whatever pain. At this point, I'm willing to try almost anything. I spent most of the day yesterday in some amount of pain. I swear, sometimes I can feel something in there spasming. Not a muscle- something deeper. I don't know. It's a strange feeling. All I know is something freakin' hurts.

It seems better today, but again.. we'll see what happens with some food. Wish me luck.

My pup is back home, by the way. The vet was actually crying when she told me about his stuff. To be fair, we had also just discussed Robbie and I think I overwhelmed her, but yeah. She cried. She said the smaller mass on the right came out cleanly and looked good. But the large mass on the left is deep. She got what she could get, but it goes down between two teeth. And she said that the texture of it doesn't look good. We won't know for sure until the biospy results come back (about a week) but she's fairly convinced it's cancer.

He seems okay. He was a little subdued yesterday. He's probably sore. He has some pain meds which also probably just make him a little out of it. But otherwise, he seems okay. Think some good thoughts for him, too.

--Trish