Thursday

+25grams.

Don't say it too loud. You'll scare it away.

We might need more moose.

They added HMF (Human Milk Fortifier) back to his breastmilk today. I guess they figured he has diarrhea no matter what they do anyway, let's see what happens. It was quite runny tonight, but I can't say it was any worse than it was, so we'll see what they decide tomorrow. They're also going to do another stool sample to see if the bacteria issue is better, worse or the same. These poop issues are difficult.

They let him have 4 hours on the cannula today and are saying that maybe tomorrow they might let him do that twice.

Our kangaroo was lovely. I actually napped for probably 20 minutes or so. Granted, I had to open my eyes every 4 minutes to make sure the alarms I was hearing weren't his, but still.

He was so adorable when we first got him out. He was rooting like you wouldn't believe. At one point he ended up sucking on my chest. You could just see him thinking "there HAS to be a nipple here somewhere!"

If he could gain some weight and keep his breathing under control, he could probably start to nipple soon. You can tell he's definitely getting there developmentally. He'll suck the hell out of his paci and like I said, the rooting is picking up. The nurse told me today that I could let him rub and lick all he wanted. So long as he didn't latch on, it was fine.

What surprised me was the overwhelming urge *I* felt to nurse him. My boobs weren't aching but my heart was. I just wanted to supply it for him. To connect that way. It was powerful.

I just love being his mom so much it's indescribable.