Thursday, June 5, 2008

Fulfilled

There aren't words.






It was amazing. He's been having a little trouble remembering to breathe tonight so I wasn't sure they were going to let me hold him. They weren't sure how long he'd last. I didn't care if it was 2 minutes.

In the end, we made it almost an hour. He fussed at me once or twice. He cooed at me and made happy squeaky noises. While I was holding him, his nurse "fed" him. (pushed some of my milk through his tube) He managed to work his hand up to his mouth and chew on the end of his thumb a little. He got the hiccups. I talked to him, sang to him, cried.

In the end, he maybe got a little too relaxed and forgot to breathe. I nudged his chin to wake him up and he started again, but then he did it again a few minutes later, so they took him from me. But it's okay. It happens. I suspect that he'll be back on the vent in the morning, but he's been off since 9 this morning, so he's gotten some breathing exercise in. He wasn't supposed to have to do all this work for another 3 months. I think he deserves the personal trainer.

I love him. I'm overwhelmed with it. I am fulfilled.

41 comments:

Heather said...

YAAAAAAAAAAY!!!! So thrilled for you!

OK, I can go to bed now!

All About Amelia said...

awww congrats trish! that post brought tears to my eyes!

Amy said...

I am soooooooooooooooooooo excited for you! Aww, this brought tears to my eyes, too. How awesome. :)

Osh said...

you know. you just know.

Katie said...

Those pictures are beautiful! Robbie is lucky to have you as a Mom!

Mrs. Soup said...

Hooooorrraaayyy! I'm so happy for you! Robbie is such a fighter and he's so lucky to have you as his mom. These pictures are definitely worth a thousand words.

thepromiseofourlove said...

Beautiful! Congrats!

alihutch said...

Hi Trish, I'm "yellowcar" from the Nest. I have to stop reading your blog at work, because it leaves me in tears...not very professional! This picture really got me, I can just feel the love. God bless you and you are in my prayers!

chipz95 said...

Oh, Trish - what amazing pictures! I'm so happy for you guys!

Malloryn said...

I'm so happy for you guys! Those were beautiful pictures. It's obvious that you're head over heels for your little one.

Baby Steps to Baby Shoes said...

Mother and child- you are both so beautiful. Sending you all lots of love and ocntinued prayers.

Jenn said...

Aww, congrats Trish!! What wonderful pictures!

seriously? said...

Congrats! So happy for you. Great pictures.

Jess said...

Congratulations!!!! You got to hold your son, your son!!! I can't even get over it, he's here and I am so happy for you.

Meghan L said...

I love seeing you holding him. What a beautiful thing.

Elsbeth (Geo) said...

What WONDERFUL pics, Trish, thank you so much for sharing! They brought tears to my eyes, I am so excited for you and David.

docgrumbles said...

I am over here from Elizabeth's blog.

Congrats on the little guy! I hope he keeps getting strong so you can have much more holding time with him.

Anonymous said...

CONGRATULATIONS!!! I'm so happy for the both of you! That is the best feeling in the world! -Steph (wvagirl)

Tracy said...

That is absolutely the best picture ever! Woohoo! Momma holding her son. :)

Keep up the good work, Robbie.

Cassie said...

This is the most beautiful picture I have seen in a long time (ha that didn't include my own child - you understand right.) I am so happy for you, it brought me to tears.

Robyn said...

I am so excited for you! You can see the joy on your face!

Valerie said...

What beautiful pictures! I know that words cannot truly describe the feeling - but you've done a great job. I'm so glad you were able to hold him. It will work wonders for him and you!

Lauren said...

That is so wonderful!!!! I've been hoping you'd get to hold him sooner rather than later. Congratulations!! He's absolutely beautiful!

Kristen said...

He is absolutely beautiful!!!

pollykinz said...

so very glad you got to hold your baby boy - you both look so happy! continued prayers for you both.

Leah said...

Amazing and exciting, continued prayers with your family.

Just a girl in the south said...

What a beautiful post and beautiful pictures. I'm so thrilled for you!!!!

Anonymous said...

I am SO thrilled for you!

Jadie

Pamela said...

I'm so glad you got to hold him! Totally crying at my desk. :)

tryingin2007 said...

oh soooo sweet! I'm really happy to hear about the great progress with your little boy. he's so loved. :)

geefunk said...

Sooo cute! So happy to hear you finally got to hold little tater! Here's to many many more happy moments like this.

-luvnnyc

S said...

Just beautiful!!!

Hyperfertile Infertile said...

I'm so happy for you and for him. You look so incredibly happy, it makes me tear up a little!

Jen said...

Such a beautiful picture--he is so tiny, so beautiful, and so perfect. It's amazing how much love you can feel for something, isn't it? Here's hoping for a very speedy hospital stay. Keep up the great work Robbie!

DC said...

I am praying for you and your little bean and wishing you both the best!

Jess said...

What an incredible post - I've been watching your blog for months and you are truly an incredible person. Robbie is amazing and I'm so happy for you. You are such a strong woman and a beautiful mother.

Collins Family said...

That is awesome enjoy every bit of it.

Meghan said...

Beautiful pictures!!! So glad you got to spend some good quality time with the little man.

and I like your attitude about the breathing exercises

**Sissy** said...

Amazing!!! I can't imagine the feeling that you felt at that moment. Congrats hon.

Erin said...

First cuddles are the most amazing ever! I'm so happy for you. It makes it so much better when you finally get to hold them.

Jenn said...

Trish, those pictures are precious! Thank you for sharing them. I am so happy for you guys!